When I started this blog it was merely an outlet for my thoughts and ideas through out my pregnancy and now being a mother. I was going through a lot during my pregnancy and so I started writing for me, no one else. After Lilli was born, I decided to open up to the rest of my family and friends when I was inspired by others who had done the same. Recently, a wise friend told me that when you open yourself up like this and let people in, you invite their opinions and ideas. I just didn't see it coming.
Unfortunately, I am a pretty sensitive person, especially sensitive to other's judgement of my parenting. Then again, find me a mom that hasn't questioned their decisions as a mom at least once. I found myself upset and flustered (for a lack of a better word). I didn't see my sarcastic joke turning into such a debated topic and was taken back when it spiraled beyond what it was intended.
I received emails, messages, comments, text messages, etc. I started to become defensive. Then I sat back, relaxed and thought about what was really bothering me in the situation. People didn't get my joke. My sarcasm didn't translate well in print. I debated whether to make my blog private again, I started to think about censoring my topics to things that were more uncontroversial. I sat on it for a few days before deciding what I wanted.
I wanted a place to share with my family and friends. I wanted a place to say my peace uninterrupted and uncensored. I'm unapologetic for how I feel, what I think, and the way we raise our daughter. We do the best we can given our situation. We love our daughter more than anything and give her every second of our attention, which is more than most parents do these days. Our lives are not the same as anyone else's and for that reason alone I have to learn to accept other people's views. So feel free to share your thoughts and opinions, just understand this a place for me to share, vent, and document our family's life.
"Song of the Entry"
